Best of me.

I've always been so scared to open up to people, well not always but circumstances dictate. I never wanted to give anyone the best of me in case they took it for granted and I never wanted anyone to see me at my worst, my weakest, my most vulnerable because I was scared they would use it to their advantage. My opinion of the human race has been twisted and distorted. Thinking everyone was out to get me and everyone just wanted to screw me over. Now I've found someone who I want to give my best and my worst to and it's proving difficult. I know that of I don't that I'm going to lose her and I am not prepared for that so as far as I'm concerned this is it. All walls are down, all barriers moved, nothing in the past is going to hold me back because Zoe is not going to do to me what other people did, just like I'm not gonna do to her what other people did. Right now I'm crying my little heart out. Something I rarely do and I don't even care because I love her so much it aches some times and I don't even tell her that because I'm too scared. Bravery is something I always admire in other people so it's about time I took a leaf out of their admiral book.